It's been an entire month since I have sat here with more than just myself and my thoughts. You could say I spent that time in a transitional period, when outside stressors had weighed me down and my surroundings felt thick with unhappiness. I found myself using the excuse 'I don't have time,' when in reality we both know I merely didn't make it a priority and choose to create time. Instead of beating myself up about it though, I'm just going to open up my laptop and pick it up again where I am now.
I've been thinking and reading a lot about breaking cycles and creating a better environment these last few weeks. I really enjoy listening to others better describe how life is moldable, how we are all changeable. And yet, we often hear about how 'people never change.' And as much as it’s easier and a lot of times safer to believe the latter, It's important we remind ourselves that mostly everything is in fact a choice. I am choosing daily to write or not write, to exercise or not, or how Im going to take care of my body as a temple or not. No one else is deciding how I treat my body and mind, and no one else will care for it how it needs to be cared for. Our bodies are huge machines and every piece connects to one another. If you are not choosing daily to first take care of this one temple you are given, it will never run properly. If you are complaining about aches and pains, ask yourself when the last time you drank a glass of water and got a bit of exercise. This, I'm sure, sounds repetitive to so many things in the world, but have you stopped for a moment to think about how true it is? How this idea relates to everything in our lives and how quite possibly the little things make up the whole? How what is going on inside of you directly effects what is going on around you?
If you are sitting at work complaining about your job, have you stopped to think about how you can change this? If your first answer is somewhere near impossible, you've stopped yourself right here from finding what you need. Everything can be changed or altered if you give your mind the freedom to believe differently than you’ve come to believe. You are bigger and better than you think you are and there are infinite possibilities out beyond your point of current view. All goals are attainable if you would first, make one and second, choose it daily by continuously showing up for yourself and have to courage to lose sight of who you think you’re supposed to be.
I've had a lot of moments this month that were filled with doubt. Many moments where I was asking myself whether I really wanted more than what I have. Where the work that loomed ahead of me seemed too grand for someone like myself to achieve and the doubt crept in trying to make me feel incapable. We all have these moments, days, weeks, even periods of time where we struggle to look past what we think and feel is holding us down. Im reminded by a lot of women who know more than I that when I have that seed of doubt that starts to grow in my mind, the best and strongest way to cut it down is to continue to show up anyway. Do it anyway and prove yourself wrong. If nothing changes because you let a tiny seed of humanity ruin your chances for change because you thought you weren’t enough, you need to have a sit down drag out chat with yourself. Not only that, but you need to have a sit down talk with at least three other people that you think know you better than anyone else. Someone out here needs to hit you with a big dose of reality and love and most of all a hug, because you are more than whatever you have convinced yourself of. We all deserve the life we truly want, how much pride are you willing to give up to get it? How much work are you willing to put in to get the desired result? How vulnerable are you willing to get?
No one out here in this big, terrible, beautiful world is better than anyone else. We are all in different stages of different journeys. The only thing that is different about the people you look up to and the people you admire is that they chose to see themselves as more and show up. They chose to stop making excuses and work to build a world that they are proud of and that they enjoy being a part of. Life is a struggle bus for everyone ladies and gentlemen, but somewhere along this road you have to start getting sick of hearing yourself complain and make excuses. Stop settling, stop with the sob story, and most of all, choose yourself over your circumstance.
A book everyone should read….
Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself by Joe Dispenza